宝贝听我说

宝贝， 听我说。。

一个梦，让我甜醒。。

梦里，的各种场景，历历在目。

梦里，的感觉，依然记得。

腼腆，害羞，心跳加速，小鹿乱撞，勇敢。。

梦里，你的小酒窝还是如此迷人。

梦里，十指紧扣是那么的温暖。

应该是一个启示，你开心。希望如此。

继续疯狂。

一个承诺: 光。明。正。大。

我回来了

一年多了， 我会来面对我自己了。

我过得怎样了？

我还好吗？

为什么跑回来了？

因为心情又汹涌澎湃了。

耳边听着歌，

一幕幕美好的浮现，

嘴角难得上扬了，

傻笑，

佩服以前的自己。

思绪不停，开了部落，

你还是那么懒，

我更甭说了。

网页更新后，

脑海也没东西更新 了，

最后的几篇，

又傻笑，

想:我这人是怎么了？

我希望你开心，健康

更想你幸福。

这一年多里，我恢复以往的油腔滑调

有杀错，没放过

结果闯祸了

让人误会了

我以为我需要

其实我已习惯了

没有多的时间，多的精力

再去开始

是借口吗？

不否认，

对不起

曾经的我已拥有最美好的你

留恋？放不下？

你值得一个更好的我。

 a few months have been passed, i should have written down this earlier, but was too busy with my works.

i have been get use of thinking of you, missing you everydy for the last 3+++years. 

its like a habbit.

just like we brush our teeth everyday, eat our lunch everyday.

for the past few months, i try my very best.

i think i do make it.

and i need to make it.

because i know your determination.

more of it,  i know you well better than others.

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The last step for me...

i shall not visit and log in this blog...again

before i have a girlfriend...

is a girlfriend, not another girlfriend...

because...

the password here is:

ILOVEZHI******

Perception

Life is like a building, ours experience is the bricks. When we growing up, we experience more.   The more we gain, the higher the buidling we can build, thats mean we can get to a higher position and have a better view.  In other words, experience help us to make a wiser decision.  The decision will reflect the maturity of a person, therefore, can we conclude that a person with more experience is more mature?

I dont think so.

To be continued...

Rational and Emotional

I have been very emotional for past couple of months, its a hard time for me.  I feel so lifeless.

I can't sleep, can't eat, i even can't laugh.

Pity me.

However, all that have passed.  I feel so sorry that I need to learn it and went through it by a hard way.  I need to tear you out from me part by part and piece by piece.  Although it was painful, really heart broken, but, in a way, i have made it.

When there's a day where I saw you with another him, and I feel greatful for you, I know,  I have make it. 

And I know, the day is not far from now. 

Deep from heart, I wish you happy and cheerful, you have a very nice dimple, don't waste it.

Did you miss me?

Ya, this question keep appearing in my head, I really hope that you do.

Its very easy for a boy to voice out the decision to his girl; but this is not the case for girl.
Girl will think very much of it, take into concern many factors, including how will the boy react once she have made the decision.
Therefore, when a girl have firmly made her choice, boys are seldom able to hold her heart again.

You have taken your time to make this decision, its hard for you, i know, because you love me, but the love have changed and become a burden for you, you have been very tired along the way.

You hold your steps back to wait for my improvement, but i dissapointed you, again and again.

I wish we can be back together, but not now, because i know that the problem will remain unsolved - I still unable to give what you need the most.  Next time perharps, next time i will be the right one instead of the perfect one for you.  My shoulder and warmest hug will be prepared for you instead of I need you shoulder again.

Time factor is the major concern, its really need time to build up and maintain the relationship.  When you are ready, please do not forget the ring.

Before my F8 and F9 examination

Now, i am start counting down for my examination, less than two hour to enter the exam hall.

It has been a month since our heart broken.
I miss you every single day.  I wish i can look for you, sms you, chat with you, but I know that i have to stop disturbing you.
I have told myself, you have made your choice, you shall release this burden (me), and go fly higher and further to seek for your happiness, while I will armored myself and go to chase for you.  Its tiring and not fair for you to wait for me...again.

Is my immature that lead to your decision, is my fault for two of us suffering.
I realise that you have given me so much, until I become greedy and asking for more, at the same time, i have stopped giving what you needed..."an quan gan"

Before this, i thought you are a part of my life, actually not, You are my life. 

I need to start moving on, i believed that you had. 

To be with you for the rest of my life, was my dream.
To be with you, will be my dream.

I will minimize you to be part of my heart, keep it deep inside, i will keep missing you until my heart stop "pumping". 

Just keep it aside.