宝贝听我说

宝贝， 听我说。。

一个梦，让我甜醒。。

梦里，的各种场景，历历在目。

梦里，的感觉，依然记得。

腼腆，害羞，心跳加速，小鹿乱撞，勇敢。。

梦里，你的小酒窝还是如此迷人。

梦里，十指紧扣是那么的温暖。

应该是一个启示，你开心。希望如此。

继续疯狂。

一个承诺: 光。明。正。大。

我回来了

一年多了， 我会来面对我自己了。

我过得怎样了？

我还好吗？

为什么跑回来了？

因为心情又汹涌澎湃了。

耳边听着歌，

一幕幕美好的浮现，

嘴角难得上扬了，

傻笑，

佩服以前的自己。

思绪不停，开了部落，

你还是那么懒，

我更甭说了。

网页更新后，

脑海也没东西更新 了，

最后的几篇，

又傻笑，

想:我这人是怎么了？

我希望你开心，健康

更想你幸福。

这一年多里，我恢复以往的油腔滑调

有杀错，没放过

结果闯祸了

让人误会了

我以为我需要

其实我已习惯了

没有多的时间，多的精力

再去开始

是借口吗？

不否认，

对不起

曾经的我已拥有最美好的你

留恋？放不下？

你值得一个更好的我。

 a few months have been passed, i should have written down this earlier, but was too busy with my works.

i have been get use of thinking of you, missing you everydy for the last 3+++years. 

its like a habbit.

just like we brush our teeth everyday, eat our lunch everyday.

for the past few months, i try my very best.

i think i do make it.

and i need to make it.

because i know your determination.

more of it,  i know you well better than others.

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The last step for me...

i shall not visit and log in this blog...again

before i have a girlfriend...

is a girlfriend, not another girlfriend...

because...

the password here is:

ILOVEZHI******

Perception

Life is like a building, ours experience is the bricks. When we growing up, we experience more.   The more we gain, the higher the buidling we can build, thats mean we can get to a higher position and have a better view.  In other words, experience help us to make a wiser decision.  The decision will reflect the maturity of a person, therefore, can we conclude that a person with more experience is more mature?

I dont think so.

To be continued...

Rational and Emotional

I have been very emotional for past couple of months, its a hard time for me.  I feel so lifeless.

I can't sleep, can't eat, i even can't laugh.

Pity me.

However, all that have passed.  I feel so sorry that I need to learn it and went through it by a hard way.  I need to tear you out from me part by part and piece by piece.  Although it was painful, really heart broken, but, in a way, i have made it.

When there's a day where I saw you with another him, and I feel greatful for you, I know,  I have make it. 

And I know, the day is not far from now. 

Deep from heart, I wish you happy and cheerful, you have a very nice dimple, don't waste it.

Did you miss me?

Ya, this question keep appearing in my head, I really hope that you do.

Its very easy for a boy to voice out the decision to his girl; but this is not the case for girl.
Girl will think very much of it, take into concern many factors, including how will the boy react once she have made the decision.
Therefore, when a girl have firmly made her choice, boys are seldom able to hold her heart again.

You have taken your time to make this decision, its hard for you, i know, because you love me, but the love have changed and become a burden for you, you have been very tired along the way.

You hold your steps back to wait for my improvement, but i dissapointed you, again and again.

I wish we can be back together, but not now, because i know that the problem will remain unsolved - I still unable to give what you need the most.  Next time perharps, next time i will be the right one instead of the perfect one for you.  My shoulder and warmest hug will be prepared for you instead of I need you shoulder again.

Time factor is the major concern, its really need time to build up and maintain the relationship.  When you are ready, please do not forget the ring.

Before my F8 and F9 examination

Now, i am start counting down for my examination, less than two hour to enter the exam hall.

It has been a month since our heart broken.
I miss you every single day.  I wish i can look for you, sms you, chat with you, but I know that i have to stop disturbing you.
I have told myself, you have made your choice, you shall release this burden (me), and go fly higher and further to seek for your happiness, while I will armored myself and go to chase for you.  Its tiring and not fair for you to wait for me...again.

Is my immature that lead to your decision, is my fault for two of us suffering.
I realise that you have given me so much, until I become greedy and asking for more, at the same time, i have stopped giving what you needed..."an quan gan"

Before this, i thought you are a part of my life, actually not, You are my life. 

I need to start moving on, i believed that you had. 

To be with you for the rest of my life, was my dream.
To be with you, will be my dream.

I will minimize you to be part of my heart, keep it deep inside, i will keep missing you until my heart stop "pumping". 

Just keep it aside.

Making decision

When facing the junction in your life, we need to decide our path wisely.  We don't have the experience, therefore we always need some help form senior and elderly, we need their wisdom.  We afraid of making mistake, doubtful of our own choice, we need the motivation from our friends and family.

Undennialable, the decision i made in past lead to who am i now. 

When making a decision, we not only required logical analyses skill, the COURAGE that we have is more important.  As once we have made up our mind, we have to kick-start!

COURAGE is  built up from past experience, we will be braver by passing every single challenge that we faced, no matter we have won or lost 'battle", happy or sad with the ending.  It was just a life experience.

However, if we keep making mistake and always is the loser, we will lost our faith, our trust to ourself and even our COURAGE.  When there is no motivation, encouragement from who we care, its hard for us to continue with the life journey.

The person who we care is always more influencial compared to the person who care for us, all is depends the way we think, our emotion and our instinct.

As in investment language : High risks high return.  But for me, Great COURAGE  in the correct path can lead to be Alexander the GREAT!

I required more courage when facing you, i'm afraid of making mistake, i'm afraid of did anything wrong.
I deeply hope that: One day, i will get the true-heart appreciation from you, appreciate my effort, appreciate my decision, appreciate me.

A mistake?

I just hope to receive a message with positive reply...  But... haiz...

You know that was just a excuse, you know that I wouldn't mind travelling for you, or you do not even know that.

Maybe is my MISTAKE to say a "no", i shall say "YES" instead, as usual...

I guess in your mind: Since he say no, then nevermind, no need to force him...

Another mistake again, or is this a mistake? Or she will be better to mingle with her friends without me?

remain UNKNOWN

A better man

We always said that :" a good friend will always remind you your mistake, or even scold you for that kind of mistake."

However, never a single person (except for parents and superior) remind me about my mistake, my weakness, is that proven that i don't have a good friend?

I think so, whenever i have something to share, the first person i always think of is she.

I think i am just a terrible friend.  I wish i can be a he for she, but, it didn't work out as i wish.

I want to be a better man for she, but i always make mistake, the mistake that i do not even know what is it...  Maybe in her perception that i am that kind of sturborn people, wouldn't listen to any advice.  I think so, that's why i always repeat my mistake, because, i do not know what is my problem!  I admit i might not like it, but that's a normal reaction right?  But at least i know that i will try to correct it later.  And you just said that this is who i am, you shouldn't change me.  Then you just want to face a person that you dont't like, both of us will suffering, i think.

Its been a few years, we both know each other very well, maybe is hard for you to accept me, my attitude, my way of doing job, my way of thinking.  Its not changing the matter, but tolerate, at least we give a ear to each other, just listen......

That's all my guessing, too many uncertainty, i just love who you are, love what you like, and so desperate to be the he for you.  Sometimes, i think i just trying too hard.

26 June 2012 Award Presentation @ KPMG

I just want to share my happyness to person around me and the peoples i love, but i find it so difficult, it was a hard time for me at end of the day, however, i still have you, my bolg.

Dear blog,

I have went to 2 award presentation event within this couple of months, the first was LLCI Malaysia Award Presentation Ceremony and the second was EU Institute Graduation Dinner.

I have been expected the above event since i aimed to achieve the top scorer in LCCI examination.  God bless me, i won the Gold Medallion in Malaysia and the Silver Medallion in World.

However, i never expect that i will have another chance of being recognize, especially in my workplace - KPMG.  It was such a honour for me. 

At the presentation day, i was so nervous !!  Our Head of Tax and Staff Partner attended the little ceremony, and i have got a small token from the Firm.  I feel so happy, despite that i have went for two similar ceremony previosly.  I FEEL SO PROUD OF IT.

Moreover, i get invited my our Head of Tax to have lunch with him, and also invited included my department's Manager, Associate Director and Director.  WOW, i feel so WOW and speechless. 

We had a great lunch and got a lot of advise from r Khoo and Ms Teh.  I promised to myself that i will keep up my work and enhance my capabilities in the future!

i love you, my blog.

24 June 2012 A happy FAMILY DAY.

A happy FAMILY DAY.

We went  to Bt 14, Puchong to have our breakfast, my brother's favourite, BAK KUT TEH.  Haha, its not bad.

Actually we went Bt 14 because i knew there was a blood donation campaign going on.  After our, breakfast, me and brother went for the campaign that held in a primary school, SJK (C) Han Ming.  Mum and sis went for "shopping" at the air-condless HERO.

This is the second time I went for blood donation.  I feel so excited about it, even after i have done with my donation.   HAHAHAHAHA

Later on, mum and sis came and met us at the school.  Both of us joined the FREE body check-up that too held at the same venue.  Mum need too take care of her body because result show she has very high cholestrol.  on the other side, i just need to FREQUENTLY go for SPORT activities to maintain my good body, hahaha.

One more highlight of the day, I bought a pair of new glassess for myself. :)

Planning_.-._._.-''''-.__..__..--''-._

2012

10th of January - You finished your exam.
11th of January - Be ready and be packed, we go Genting Highlands, maybe stay there.
12th of January - we will heading south of Malaysia, Johor or Melaka, and find a place to sleep.
13th of January - We will be travelling back and heading to Putrajaya!

A simple plan now, just to motivate you!

ACCA - FIP

Acting diligently to minimize the fraud, theft and error that will be occur in order to secure the impacts(benefits/harmful) to the public who will be affected by the shortcomings of an auditors.

Money laudering is the process by which illegally obtained funds are given the appearance of having originated from a legitimate source to disguise its proceeds from crime activities.

Trading of a corporation's stock or other securities (e.g. bonds or stock options) by individuals with potential access to non-public information about the company.

As behaving legally is the minimum requirement of a profession, professional ethics are important because law may be sometimes did not covered all aspects, its allowed profession as a reference while facing dillemma, which maybe lawful but unethics.

Threats that possess impacts on fundamental priciples of ethical behaviour are self-interest threats, self-review threats, advocacy, familiarity, and intimadation where they may discourage the obeyness to the ethics rule.

Mesurable criteria in order to meet dealine (timeliness) and perform (coorperativeness)within expectation (accuracy) in any circumstances (flexibility).

It is a versatile and powerful software tools which allow easy and accurate stoarage and processing of detailed numerical informatipon with wide range of formulae and graphical function, enable to produce budget cash flow, investment appraisal etc.

internally motivates people to do the things that seem good and right. People develop principles by working and living with people with similar principles and seeing the positive consequences and real benefits of appropriate conduct.

A Christmas Present

Year 2011, a special present for special one.

A little smile cheer me up whole day long, even whole week.

As i said before, you are my mood

Christmas ? Christmas Eve?

This night, I am alone in the house.

After having lunch with aunty Amy, we (me, sis and bro) went back home.
Later, dad bring sis and bro went to his friends' place, and mum go to work , left me alone.

As usual, i feel so cold and chill being alone in the house, even though without air-cond. Maybe is the coldness of lonely.

Other stand sit in front of the TV, i have nothing else to do.

tick tock tick tock...clock's hand keep turning, and i fell asleep.

Without noticing the vibration of my hanphone, i received 6 missed call from sis and my dear each.

OH MY GOD!
This year, i will go through my CHRISTMAS with full of guilty.

because did not pick up the call from my dear...while she was not in the mood, while she need me...

GUILTY...my X'mas punishment!

2011 - update (3)

1. Sticky
2. Pendrive
3. Riben hairband
4. Reload
5. McD toys
6. Anniversary ring
7. Magazines
8. Pool
9. Hairclip
10. Pillow
11. Chocolate
12. Sugus & Ribena
13. Contac lens
14. Note book
15. ** Necklace**
16. Camera
17. mini Camera

1. Fun Ok @ Cheras
2. Chillax @ Puteri (CLOSED)
3. Show Luo Concert @ Putra Indoor Stadium, Bukit Jalil
4. T-Bowl @ Sunway Pyramid
5. Station 1 @ Puteri(BLACKLIST !)
6. Asia One @ Puteri
7. McD
8. Sunway Lagoon
9. Hometown Hainan Kopitiam @ Puteri
10. Asam House @ IOI (GOOD!)
11. Old Boy @ Puteri (CLOSED)
12. 96'C @ Puteri
13. HonKee Porridge
14. D'rich @ Puteri
15. Little Taiwan @ IOI
16. Hainan Tea @ Puteri (GOOD !)
17. Face to Face @ Puteri
18. Pasar malam @ Taman Connought
19. Sense Cafe @ IOI
20. Hometown @ Puteri (CLOSED)
21. LokLok @ Puchong Jaya
22. Old town @ Wangsa Maju & Puchong Jaya
23. Garden Cafe @ Sunway Pyramid
24. Chatime @ Puchong Jaya & Sunway Pyramid
25. iCity @ Shah Alam
26. Popular Book Fair @ Summit USJ
27. Wats Cafe @ Setapak (BLACKLIST !)
28. Formosas @ Setapak
29. Sharetea @ IOI
30. 'FuXing' DimSum
31. KFC
32. K3K @ Subang
33. Porridge time @ Sunway Pyramid
34. KoHyang korean @ Sunway Pyramid
35.
36.

1. Kung Fu Panda
2. Mr. Popper Penguin
3. Petaling Street's Warrior
4. You are tha apple of my eye

ACCA - F1

Organization: social arrangement; pursues collective goals; controls its performance; boundary separating from environment.

Organization Characteristics: Perform to meet / improve standard; Formal documentation, system, procedures; People specialization; Pursues variety of goals & objective

Organization can: achieve results an individual can’t achieve alone, be more productive, overcome individual’s limitation, enable people specialization, save time, accumulate and share knowledge and info. (SYNERGY)!

Organization in different type of industry: Agriculture; Manufacturing; Extractive / Raw materials; Energy; Retailing / Distribution; Intellectual production; Service.

Organization are different in terms of: Ownership, Control, Activity, Profit / Non-profit, Legal status, Size, Sources of finance, Technology

Organization – Profit oriented, Non-profit oriented, Non-governmental organization, Private sector, Public Sector, Co-operative societies, Mutual associations.

Profit oriented – Produce goods / service to earn maximum profit.
Non-profit oriented - Minimize cost to provide goods / service for benefits of public.
Non-governmental organization – Non commercial and achieving objectives of promoting social, political, or environment change etc by a group of individuals from different industry and social level.
Private sector comprise of private limited company, public limited company, partnership, sole proprietor
Public sector = Government (local, state, federal)

Private Sector
Bank loan, share, debenture
Expertise in respective field
Profitability

Public Sector
Tax
Politician
Efficiency

Stakeholder Mapping - MEUDELOW
A. Minimal Effort – Low in both Power & Interest
B. Kept informed – High Interest
C. Kept Satisfied – High Power
D. Key Players – High in both Power and Interest

Shareholder is stakeholder; stakeholder is not shareholder.

Environmental analysis (Global / Local; General / Task)= Inputs to strategy making process.

Environmental analysis process:
PEST ANALYSIS
Go in the environment.
What is the major influence?
What is the key force for immediate and competitive environment?
SWOT ANALYSIS
Where is the organization position?
Are the above all threats or opportunities for me?

Why need Environmental analysis:
• Globalization of business enable many organizations have the chance to penetrate others markets (overseas / social class), but at the same time may face more competitors!
• Science and technology development.
• Changing of customers’ values and behavior.
• Changes in business practices (downsizing, outsourcing).
• Bargaining strength of different stakeholder – Government, Public, Trade Union etc.

If organizations do not follow the footstep of changing of the environment, the will be left behind and unable to compete with others, then they will be disqualified!

Environment is a source of UNCERTAINTY!

SWOT Analysis: Strength (exploit), Weakness (improve, remove), Opportunity (exploit), Threats (turnaround, transfer, reduce)

Competitive forces: Threat of new products and substitutes, Bargaining power of customers and suppliers, Rivalry

Value chain: Primary activities Supporting activities

2011 - update (2)

My Expenses:
1. Reload
2. Others (Purchases for myself)
3. Food^
4. Stationery
5. Transpotation^
6. Entertainment
7. Family^
8. Dear
9. EU
10. MC
11. ACCA

Note^: Analysed in my dekstop

2011 - update (1)

2011
I have COMPLETED:

1. LCCI Diploma
2. ACCA Knowledge Level
3. My job as tuition teacher at Stars and Planet
4. My job as private tutor
5. My job as taekwondo coach-assisstant
6. YMM event - Chap Goh Mei; "Yuan Dian"; 30 Hour Famine
7. Puchong Youth event - Talent Ccompetition
8. Others Event - @petronas Puteri; @Puchong Jaya A, @MCA at Fraser Hill, @Dylan's dance competition at IOI Bouleverd
9. Being employed by KPMG Tax Services Sdn Bhd
10. KWSP, Maybank, Groupon & Lelong Online

I PURCHASED (for myself):
1. Spectacles
2. Padini Shirt x2
3. Smart Master Shirt x4
4. Leather shoes
5. Sport shoes x2
6. Belt
7. Books
8. McD toyssss